WEARY

Do you ever get tired of doing right? I know, I know..."And let us not be weary in well-doing: for in due season we shall reap, if we faint not." Gal 6:9

But...deep, down inside.. do you?

Well, I do. As a known "goodies two shoes" I fall into seasons where I HAD ENOUGH! I can only take so much....crap...from others, I soon find myself running over with despair. I try to "take it to the Lord"- but I still get angry.

Anger is a good thing, depending on how you handle it. When I get angry, I try to find the source. Is it just me or is it someone or something else? Then I handle it. I can be sort of a push over, but I don't always take that into consideration. I do feel there are times I need to exercies my "rights", and others I need to show grace. And still other times, I need to humble myself (I hate those times).

Despite of how I feel, I always try to please God in the end. Sometimes I get to tell someone off (in my own way), but then I have to repent.

One lesson I have learned--most people will take a advantage of you if you let them!

Who You Callin A Bit--?

Have you ever has someone you love call you "out your name"? It is a humiliating moment. It's like time freezes as you try to process in your mind what made them think it was alright to say such a thing...

If you are like me- you would never call someone you love a dirty name [at least not to their face]. I would never want to deliberately hurt someone I love. Not to say I have not hurt loved ones before, but I never go for the jugular [but if you push me long enough, I may go near it].

Retaliation may be your first thought. But if you are trying to live a godly lifestyle- that is not an option..

What about forgiveness? Well, sure...

How about forgiveness with boundaries? That sounds a little better...

This is not the first time this particular person did this. Maybe I did not set any boundaries the first time.

There is so much to learn about God and His ways. We must allow God to teach us how to forgive and if our forgiveness is to be applied differently to different people and different situations.

Lord, give me a pure heart and a discerning eye...

Waiting

God is soooo good. If you have felt like you have wasted years, and years, and years....and years of your life- He is a redeemer.

I left school to get married and raise a family. I have recently reapplied for school. The same school- 15 years later! All looks well- so far. God willing- I will be back on track.

Sometimes I feel a little resentful as to why I have to go the LONG route- but so did the children of Israel in the bible. God took them that way to prepare them for the battles that waited for them in the promised land. They ended up dying in the wilderness because of their lack of faith and complaining against the very One who delivered them and prepared a place for them to go.

During my 15 years in the wildreness- I don't think I complained- but I know did not understand. But along the way- someway, somehow- I always believed God was still on my side. I now realize that in the end- He was the only one who TRULY had my best interest in mind- and was willing to move mountains on my behalf...

Do I regret the wilderness? No. I am more insightful- have more wisdom- and have a true love-relationship with God. He has truly proven His faithful to me personally. Not just through the testimonies of others...

I love the Lord-

He truly has heard my

5-year constand cry...